I was not getting sex but my desires were there. When you raped me for the first time, I felt so released and relaxed after that, though it was so painful for me but I was feeling strangely good. I was surprised for what had happened to me, a lady of 55 years age. But didn't know who my rapist was. Also that sex was so painful that I wanted to kill the rapist. However the second rape was not painful as I was done in "proper place" and proper way. I agree that I enjoyed it so much. After a long time I felt light and so happy. I knew it was you but I was not angry. I was myself surprised that I was not getting so angry with you.

I know that the lack of sex is the reason of my behavior. Now as I have tasted sex, and as a lion can not live without blood after tasting it once, after having sex after a long time, I feel I need sex in life and need it."