Hi people I am Nandu. But I love to be called Nandini. The name was given to me by the father in law of my sister or Sasur in hindi. The story will be in mix hindi and English. Well let me tell you about myself I am a feminine guy. From childhood I was always attracted to stuff that girls are attracted to like dolls and makeup and hated sports. This may be due to the fact that when I was born my parents wanted a girl. So especially my mother used to behave as if I am a girl only. Due to this fact I began to feel like a girl had emotions like a girl and loved to be a girl in general. My mother also saw nothing wrong with it. But my father always wanted to treat me like a guy. But unfortunately when I was 5 yrs old he expired due to an accident on a train. Since my fathers death I was now at home exclusively treated more like a girl by my mother but for the public I was always told to act like a guy. I got teased a lot in school. Iwas very upset at the start but then realized that I was like a girl trapped in a guys body and over a period of time started to accept what I was. As I reached 9th I loved to wear my mothers clothes.though as I got older my mother did treat me like a guy but by now I had become more of a girl. I didn’t want to tell my mother that I was beginning to feel like a girl cause I thought that she would then abandon me and I will have no place to go. So secretly I started dressing up like a women when I was alone. I would wear my mothers sarees and salwars and bras and panties and roam in my room thinking of myself as a girl. I watched many fashion channels and learned to wear saree properly and how to wear lipstick and what make up and how to put make up and all that stuff. When I got in 11th standard I bought a wig and kept it hidden in my room and wore the wig whenever I dressed up. But nobody else had ever seen me wearing womens clothes. It was my secret. when I was in 12th and had become 18 yrs old my sister who was 23 yrs old had to get married. Well the wedding went well. After one year I had vacations and so my sister invited my mom and me to stay. As I had one month vacations I told mom that I will stay for a month with my sis. My mom agreed but she couldn’t come so I was to go alone. So I went.